Sometimes what we think is for us; really isn’t for us. This is one of the hardest life lessons of them all. You fight for the relationship, the job, or the life that just wasn’t planned for you. We set ourselves up to believe that “it’s ours” and when it doesn’t happen we don’t understand why defeat has come and made residence in our path. Reason: Everything happens in due time; not right now.
Just when I thought a chapter was closing and I would soon begin a new one; reality set in. This is not the road I chose for you. The road block appeared, the barrier revealed, and the door sealed shut to never be opened again. I soon learned that leaving a place called home was not what was destined for me. I cried, yes I whined. I kicked and screamed. I let out a sigh….I must be a failure. I felt that all that I wanted would never happen, because the doors were never opening to me. Thankful for the many voices that reaffirmed my existence and all the reasons why this had to happen. Yes, I clogged my ears and went mute in my responses. I couldn’t see past the fact that I was rejected and neglected without reason for their disapproval of my acceptance.
I then learned that everything has a specific timing. A time when things should and will happen. It just isn’t my time to go and for that God knows that my purpose here is still ongoing. I tried to run from home (Camden) but each and every time I am turned around to continue on the journey until I have fulfilled the plan. It’s not in my time and there is no race. Dollar signs won’t ease my pain, because those at the top aren’t always happy. Diddy said it best, “More money more problems”. It was all designed for me to learn patience, while believing in the process and not the now. My day was coming, but it wasn’t yesterday and sure wasn’t today. When it comes I will be happy and there is nothing that will block it.
We have to learn to be patient and await our time. Avoid the instant gratification and enjoy the ride until that time comes when everything makes sense and fulfills the plan. I learned that jumping into situations makes matter worse, kicks you off the course, and causes damage to your inner thoughts. Learn to accept the pain and enjoy the rain. When it’s your time it will all make since, because the plan was never in your hands.
mOOd: Trusting in the timing: It’s just not my time!
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