No Music, but Music
It’s Monday Morning. Monday. The return from a much needed weekend and the return back to the workplace. Hell. Oh wait did I say that out loud. Well this is the space where I am free to release whatever and however I feel, so…….yes it’s Hell. With that being said I don’t want to hear the sound of music this morning. No. I just want to hear the melody of my thoughts and put my personal soundtrack of a glorious wee on repeat. A break that allowed me to what I wanted, when I wanted to. A wonderful soundtrack of silence, laughter when necessary, great conversation, and beauty of only hearing my voice. THAT ALL ENDS TODAY, so I have no desire to listen to music. Music will confuse my feelings. It will more than likely make me unhappy….today it will not boost my ego…..ease my vibe…or lift me up. So I need silence.
In about a couple of hours I will be forced to endure the environments soundtrack. A soundtrack I never miss or jump to play. It’s a forced situation that causing me to cringe in my chair and try my hardest to tune out. It causing my head to pound, which turns my whole world on its axes. Today starts that routine again. I love it…..now that was funny…you already know how I feel about work Mondays. A week off didn’t change my feelings towards them. Today I don’t want music, but I will so need it. I will be using music as my shield today. This is such a major contradiction. I need it when it is convenient for me, but typically only when I have to dwell between the walls that don’t allow me to be me.
Right now I need the silence. I need it more than anything. I want to hide under the sheets until someone realizes that I am not occupying a seat. Pause the music please I must stand to my feet. Clear my head and pressed forward towards the end of the day. I can do this…I think I can…I know I can. I will play the music…oh trust me I will. First, I need to replay my beautiful soundtrack so that nothing but positive memories surround me as I enter this self forbidden land.
SayWhatNOW?!?! 